My Thoughts

2019, I met someone in Galaxy. My first impression about him was smart person, agile, and different from other men that I've ever met. He knew me but we didn't talk too much. We talked just about the subject that I didn't get it when he explained it in the class.  In 2021 or 2022 (I forget),  I stopped to looking for informations about him. Why? 'Cause I speculated that he didn't know me and no matter how hard I chase, he won't recognize me.  But, in 2023, The case about tax and customs are being widely discussed by the public. Without conscious, I remember him. I'm trying to find about his news. I didn't expect it too much, 'cause in the deep of my heart I just wanna know the condition about him. I hope that he lives well and in the good condition.  But, I think what happened exceeded my expectations. He start to recognize me. I'm happy 'cause since the last we met, finally he recognize me. I'm so speechless.  Thanks for reviving me agai...

You,  Someone I didn't expect coming into my life.  You,  Someone who easily broke down my defenses that I've been building.  I'm glad to know you. No regrets at all, but I'm just a lil bit disappointed.  I didn't think that knowing you could make me happy and disappointed. I'm happy 'cause I can know you and I'm disappointed 'cause it turns out that you come to my life only to fill the loneliness of your life.  I never thought that this disappointment could hurt me. I also didn't think that I could easily put my feelings for you.  Sometimes I say to myself that I'm stupid. Stupid 'cause I easily open my heart to someone that I just met even we only met once. Thanks for teaching me how to love, how should I react if I get "Love Bombing" again, and be aware to someone I just met. 

Sometimes I want to be someone who is always there for other people. However, when I did it, it turned out to be not as I expected. I mean, when I'm there for someone else, I hope he's always there too. Maybe it sounds be selfish, but I'm not a hypocrite. Everyone definitely wants someone else who's always there beside 'em, maybe to become a support system or just a friend to share stories with. Moreover, as individuals we can't control the attitudes of the others. We don't have the right to control their life. All we can do is let it go.

Everyone is free to express theirselves in any ways. We don't need to judge them 'cause basically every single one has their own life story.